Becoming Zave

If I cannot find hope, I will become it.

Author: Zave


  • This post discusses queer identity, discrimination, internalised transphobia, grief, trauma and references past suicidal thoughts. So, I finally watched Heartstopper. I had put it off for a long time. Not because I didn’t think I would enjoy it but rather, I couldn’t stop thinking about what happened to Kit Connor. Back in 2022, at eighteen…

  • This post discusses emotional flashbacks, dissociation, grief, loss, suicidal thoughts, and intense emotional distress. The other night, I had a meltdown. A big one. A bigger one than I have had in a long time. The details of what triggered it are not particularly important. What matters is how it felt. I felt completely overwhelmed…

  • This post discusses gender identity, gender dysphoria, discrimination, transphobia, minority stress and mental health. It also references historical psychological theories (e.g. Freud) that some readers may find outdated or offensive. I am a transgender man and one of the most common questions I am asked is, “but how do you know you are a man?”…

  • This post discusses transphobia, discrimination, harassment, violence, hate crimes, mental health, and anti-trans misinformation. While no graphic details are included, readers may find these topics distressing. A while ago, I came across a claim that trans people are “violent extremists”. As a trans man, studying psychology, I find this concerning because not only is it…

  • This post discusses LGBTQ+ discrimination, transphobia, fear about the future, and the emotional impact of anti-queer rhetoric. I was speaking to a friend of mine earlier, and we discussed how Pride Month feels particularly heavy this year. We noticed that Pride seems quieter this year. Not missing, or vanished, just quieter. Perhaps it is because…

  • This post discusses transphobia, passing and gender identity. When people think about gender affirmation, they often think of the big things. Starting hormones, finding and changing your name, getting surgery. Milestones that mark a significant step in your transition. But today, I learned that gender affirmation can come in the most unexpected of places. During…

  • This post discusses gender dysphoria, mental health struggles, transphobia, and feelings of distress and hopelessness. I wasn’t sure whether to post this but, upon reflection, I have decided that I need to. The whole purpose of this blog is to portray the reality of mental health, and that includes talking about the times when things…

  • This post contains discussion of mental health, trauma, dissociation, suicidal thoughts, and childhood experiences of distress and identity struggle. For as long as I can remember, I have struggled with my mental health. I didn’t always have the words for it, I just knew there was something fundamentally wrong with me. I’m not sure exactly…

  • Hi, I’m Zave!  I am a 25-year-old psychology student. I chose this subject because I have a profound passion for raising awareness for complex, and often misunderstood, mental health difficulties. In fact, this platform exists for that sole purpose.  I guess you could say that my personal experiences with mental health are a significant reason…